This week in Melissa Taylor’s Online Bible Study, from the book, Greater, written by pastor Steven Furtick, one of the choices of topic to write about was…
1. For the Good. What are your thoughts on this week’s reflection verse?
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. ~ Romans 8:28 NIV84
Initially, I avoided blogging for this week. I just couldn’t bring myself to take the time to sit down and write out my thoughts. My emotions and feelings have been a tangled mess.
27 innocent lives lost.
A 9 year old boy dead after a house fire.
It’s been daunting but I know the feelings I’ve had are nothing compared to the families of those in Connecticut or the mother of that little boy.
I’ve read and read again Romans 8:28 and it’s times like these that make that verse less understandable.
It’s God’s purpose for twenty young children to die?
It’s God’s will for a little boy to suffer?
I’ve watched interviews with some of the parents from Sandy Hook. They have faith in God. They believe in Him. They rest assured their babies are with Him now.
They love God.
“In all things God works for the good of THOSE WHO LOVE HIM”
They LOVE HIM and yet they are left to suffer, tremendous pain, anguish, devastation.
And because I too, love Him, I search and dig, for a deeper understanding because my simple mind just cannot understand this verse when it comes to the tragedies and horror we face.
Then I read…
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; Proverbs 3:5
God gave us this verse because He knew we would not be able to understand. His plan, His purpose is far grander than anything we could ever comprehend. There is no explanation we could come up with to explain the good in any tragedy, especially when innocent children are involved.
We will see the good.
We are already seeing it.
The parents are speaking out. They are sharing how perfect their children were and how strong they were. They are sharing their lives. Without this, I would never have known of them. I have had the privilege to learn about 27 people, their courage, their strength, their hopes and dreams. I have seen their faces, prayed for them and poured out tears for their families. My life has been changed because of them. Maybe yours has too?!
And this boy, who went to school with my son, who got lost in the dark, overcome by the fire and perished too soon. He leaves behind a sister, devastated that she couldn’t save her brother. He leaves behind a mother, distraught that he’s gone. He leaves a testimony of happiness, smiles, love and laughter. I did not know him but all I have heard about him was what a joy he was and how he brightened everyone’s day. What a blessing to hear his story, to learn about him and to give him a place in my heart.
Just as I can’t understand the reasons why these things happen, there were many things in my own life that left me with these same feelings. Why was I abused? Why did my father abandon me? Why did I spend years filled with anger and depression, just waiting to die? Why does God love me? Why would He want to use me? What good am I?
Even after spending most of my life asking those questions over and over, God has shown me time and time again that His plan is perfect. Many times I planned my life, I chose my direction and yet, He continued to put stepping stones in my path that led me to a better place, a place filled with joy and light, a way out of the darkness. Sure, there is still pain and a lack of understanding, but there is also faith, hope and love.
“To shine on those living in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the path of peace.” Luke 1:79
I’m not meant to understand all the things of this earth but it is in Gods plan for me to accept Him, believe in Him and have faith. I will continue to believe that there is a greater plan than the pain and heartache we see right now. I have to.
And that leaves me with…
“…I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39
Not even senseless shootings, fires or our own simple minds and lack of understanding.
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